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you don't need to apologize. everything's fine. no new updates.
i'm fine
[ And after a slight pause. ]
i mean i'm literally covered in dirt and i haven't shaved in a month because apparently this place thinks a machete is the same thing as a razor and if i have to spend one more week camping i am going to lose my mind but other than that, never been better
are you okay? is eddie?
[ And after a slight pause. ]
i mean i'm literally covered in dirt and i haven't shaved in a month because apparently this place thinks a machete is the same thing as a razor and if i have to spend one more week camping i am going to lose my mind but other than that, never been better
are you okay? is eddie?
are you stuck in the jungle or something?
you're not starving to death right? D:
wait are you still there??????
i'm fine, eddie's fine. he had a concussion but he's good now.
you're not starving to death right? D:
wait are you still there??????
i'm fine, eddie's fine. he had a concussion but he's good now.
i don't think he's gonna hurt me. i know you can never be 100% sure, and i've been wrong before, but i've got a good feeling about it this time.
[ There are ambiguities to that - he doesn't know if Arya meant hurting him emotionally or physically, but his answer remains the same regardless. He knows that he can't tell her about Eobard- who he is, what he'd done - but he can get away with an oblique reference or two. ]
he is a good man. and yeah he makes me happy. like, happier than i've been for a long time.
[ He debates leaving it there, but there is too much that is being left unsaid, and Cisco doesn't want things to be uncertain. Arya can be hard to read and predict sometimes, and he's found that honesty helps. So he is forthright and sends a follow-up text: ]
he told me what you said. that it's weird for you to be around him because he looks like a lannister. if you don't want to be near him because of that, i totally get it. i'm not gonna judge.
[ It's thin ice he's skating on; Arya is a very smart girl, and if he doesn't choose his words carefully, she might make the logical jump from what he wants to tell her to Harry and Eobard. Still, it's worth the risk, to give her what encouragement he can. ]
but if you decide you want to try to get to know him, i think it will get easier with time. i made friends with someone who looked a lot like a person who had hurt me once. it was really hard at first, but after a while, i got used to it.
[ There are ambiguities to that - he doesn't know if Arya meant hurting him emotionally or physically, but his answer remains the same regardless. He knows that he can't tell her about Eobard- who he is, what he'd done - but he can get away with an oblique reference or two. ]
he is a good man. and yeah he makes me happy. like, happier than i've been for a long time.
[ He debates leaving it there, but there is too much that is being left unsaid, and Cisco doesn't want things to be uncertain. Arya can be hard to read and predict sometimes, and he's found that honesty helps. So he is forthright and sends a follow-up text: ]
he told me what you said. that it's weird for you to be around him because he looks like a lannister. if you don't want to be near him because of that, i totally get it. i'm not gonna judge.
[ It's thin ice he's skating on; Arya is a very smart girl, and if he doesn't choose his words carefully, she might make the logical jump from what he wants to tell her to Harry and Eobard. Still, it's worth the risk, to give her what encouragement he can. ]
but if you decide you want to try to get to know him, i think it will get easier with time. i made friends with someone who looked a lot like a person who had hurt me once. it was really hard at first, but after a while, i got used to it.
so it was less seeing the future or getting divine inspiration and more... like, just translating?
[ It's a lot more mundane than Cisco had thought it would be, considering the only vibe he'd had of Kevin had been pretty action-oriented and badass. Of course, it had still been enough to get him killed. But Cisco doesn't worry so much about making light of it, since that's what Kevin is doing, anyway. ]
i'd say it's doubly ironic - predicting things would go bad and then they did, and the guy who had you killed had saved you before. that's like dozen alanis morissette's worth of irony right there.
and i feel that, bro. if you have to bite the big one you want it to be something spectacular. like... this friend of mine. he died in a literal blaze of glory, closing a singularity that opened up over the city that would have killed everyone on the planet if it hadn't been for him. if you've gotta go, that's the way to do it. doing something that matters. saving people. not... just out of nowhere, because you're inconvenient to someone's evil plan.
[ Again, the details were different, but there's enough similarities there for Cisco to relate. There hadn't been any sandwiches in sight, but both his deaths had been... pretty pathetic, all things considered. ]
still i guess you got those months.
[ It's a lot more mundane than Cisco had thought it would be, considering the only vibe he'd had of Kevin had been pretty action-oriented and badass. Of course, it had still been enough to get him killed. But Cisco doesn't worry so much about making light of it, since that's what Kevin is doing, anyway. ]
i'd say it's doubly ironic - predicting things would go bad and then they did, and the guy who had you killed had saved you before. that's like dozen alanis morissette's worth of irony right there.
and i feel that, bro. if you have to bite the big one you want it to be something spectacular. like... this friend of mine. he died in a literal blaze of glory, closing a singularity that opened up over the city that would have killed everyone on the planet if it hadn't been for him. if you've gotta go, that's the way to do it. doing something that matters. saving people. not... just out of nowhere, because you're inconvenient to someone's evil plan.
[ Again, the details were different, but there's enough similarities there for Cisco to relate. There hadn't been any sandwiches in sight, but both his deaths had been... pretty pathetic, all things considered. ]
still i guess you got those months.
couldn't have put it better myself.
actually i think all of them are love stories except alice in wonderland, because she's like 10 years old.
i'm honored. come to me with your movie questions whenever. i'll be your movie guru.
yeah, he writes romance novels. 'the notebook' is the only one i've heard of though. they made it into a movie that's pretty famous. i would say my friend caitlin made me watch it but that would be a lie. i made her watch it.
( why the :/, arya said you were a fan of romance stuff??? or was that a phase and she just isn't letting you live it down? )
actually i think all of them are love stories except alice in wonderland, because she's like 10 years old.
i'm honored. come to me with your movie questions whenever. i'll be your movie guru.
yeah, he writes romance novels. 'the notebook' is the only one i've heard of though. they made it into a movie that's pretty famous. i would say my friend caitlin made me watch it but that would be a lie. i made her watch it.
( why the :/, arya said you were a fan of romance stuff??? or was that a phase and she just isn't letting you live it down? )
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jesus, you must be like full bear grylls at this point. i was hoping you found, like, a spa room or something.
keep looking. ray and i have been trying to code a program that lets devices share their locations with one another but it's still a work in progress.
good good, i think. not quotation marks needed. i'm not gonna lie he was pretty out of it for a couple days but i made him stay in bed. i was very strict. caitlin would've been proud.
i mean, that's physically anyway. as for the rest, probably somewhere between good good and "good". creepsville made it pretty hard to find him. we were looking for like... twelve hours, maybe a bit more.
keep looking. ray and i have been trying to code a program that lets devices share their locations with one another but it's still a work in progress.
good good, i think. not quotation marks needed. i'm not gonna lie he was pretty out of it for a couple days but i made him stay in bed. i was very strict. caitlin would've been proud.
i mean, that's physically anyway. as for the rest, probably somewhere between good good and "good". creepsville made it pretty hard to find him. we were looking for like... twelve hours, maybe a bit more.
not gonna lie i did actually find a hot spring at one point, four stars. i'm glad the gang's all still here, though. minus eobard and snart.
i guess twelve hours is better than a few weeks. [ Which is more dour than is appropriate, maybe. Not the time to dwell on the past. ] thank you for finding him.
i guess twelve hours is better than a few weeks. [ Which is more dour than is appropriate, maybe. Not the time to dwell on the past. ] thank you for finding him.
[ Arya is glad that Cisco knows the risks involved in courting someone, in trusting a single person that deeply, but she's also glad that Cisco does it anyway. That he doesn't let fear keep him from Eddie. It's admirable. ]
Good. You deserve that kind of happiness. : )
[ So Cisco does know. She's glad he's not here to see her cheeks flush. Even if Cisco says he gets it, the whole situation is still terribly embarrassing for Arya, who knows she should stop being foolish and get over herself.
The problem is, that's a lot easier said than done. ]
I spent a year at the mercy of the Lannisters, and two more running from them. The running is a habit that is hard to break.
But I want to try to break it, because I know Eddie is your friend, and not a Lannister at all. I have a hard time remembering that all the time, but I know that if I let myself be afraid of every educated, blond man I meet, then the Lannisters have won after all. And I cannot let that happen.
Good. You deserve that kind of happiness. : )
[ So Cisco does know. She's glad he's not here to see her cheeks flush. Even if Cisco says he gets it, the whole situation is still terribly embarrassing for Arya, who knows she should stop being foolish and get over herself.
The problem is, that's a lot easier said than done. ]
I spent a year at the mercy of the Lannisters, and two more running from them. The running is a habit that is hard to break.
But I want to try to break it, because I know Eddie is your friend, and not a Lannister at all. I have a hard time remembering that all the time, but I know that if I let myself be afraid of every educated, blond man I meet, then the Lannisters have won after all. And I cannot let that happen.
ok at least it wasn't all awful, that's a relief to hear.
pretty low bar we set there. [ Yes, 'we', because it's not always Barry's job to save everyone all on his own. ]
if you don't find a door soon and we don't get this app working either i'm coming in there and finding you, too. now that i know you wanna be found.
[ He hadn't actually been sure about that, before. Now that he knows it's not deliberate self-imposed solitude, like hell is he gonna let Barry be stuck in the mountains alone for a second more than he has to be. ]
pretty low bar we set there. [ Yes, 'we', because it's not always Barry's job to save everyone all on his own. ]
if you don't find a door soon and we don't get this app working either i'm coming in there and finding you, too. now that i know you wanna be found.
[ He hadn't actually been sure about that, before. Now that he knows it's not deliberate self-imposed solitude, like hell is he gonna let Barry be stuck in the mountains alone for a second more than he has to be. ]
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[ Cisco's heart sinks, reading the text. Every new thing he learns about Arya's life makes it clearer to him just how much hardship she's been through, how little safety or comfort or happiness she's had. ]
i can only imagine.
(i wish i could have been there to help you 😞 )
and remember there's no rush. you don't have to push yourself just to prove that you haven't let them win. you can take your time.
i'll do whatever i can to make it easier for you, if you'd like.
i can only imagine.
(i wish i could have been there to help you 😞 )
and remember there's no rush. you don't have to push yourself just to prove that you haven't let them win. you can take your time.
i'll do whatever i can to make it easier for you, if you'd like.
Edited 2016-03-25 19:31 (UTC)
[Hi. This is an unsolicited picture of a onesie with the feet cut out of it, lying on a bed. Next to it is a leather jacket, which can be ignored, and various types of shoes from boots to sparkly sneakers.]
This is a Disney, isn't it?
This is a Disney, isn't it?
I do like those sorts of stories, I just don't think I can sit through a slew of them just now.
And she tells it true, it was all I thought about once.
It's all I'm thinking about now, but it's made me cross and sad and ???? :/ :??? :(
DDDD:
:x
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And she tells it true, it was all I thought about once.
It's all I'm thinking about now, but it's made me cross and sad and ???? :/ :??? :(
DDDD:
:x
I
oh my god
yes. it certainly is.
where did you even find that????
yes. it certainly is.
where did you even find that????
[ 'Just now' - so something had happened. She'd been dumped or gotten her heart broken. Cisco's been there. ]
i'm sorry sansa i didn't mean to bum you out. 😰
do you need someone to talk to? i've been told i am a very good listener.
and i've had plenty of days when thinking about that kind of story made ME want to throw things, too. PLENTY.
i'm sorry sansa i didn't mean to bum you out. 😰
do you need someone to talk to? i've been told i am a very good listener.
and i've had plenty of days when thinking about that kind of story made ME want to throw things, too. PLENTY.
No, you do not need to wish that. I am glad that you were not there, that you are not from that world at all. What happened is done, and neither you nor me could have prevented it. But the fact that you are here now has helped me more than I know how to say.
(You were the first to teach me something that did not have anything to do with killing, or even simply surviving, and I will never forget that. 😎)
I can do it if I put my mind to it. I know this to be true -- my will is strong, and has served me well before.
If you can, please try not to let on that anything is wrong. Both you and Eddie know what is happening, but the rest is up to me, and I do not want to prevent you from enjoying yourself. And I will enjoy myself, too. 🙂
(You were the first to teach me something that did not have anything to do with killing, or even simply surviving, and I will never forget that. 😎)
I can do it if I put my mind to it. I know this to be true -- my will is strong, and has served me well before.
If you can, please try not to let on that anything is wrong. Both you and Eddie know what is happening, but the rest is up to me, and I do not want to prevent you from enjoying yourself. And I will enjoy myself, too. 🙂
[ Only Arya, Cisco thinks, could go from talking about being trained to kill to a sunglasses emoji in a single sentence. ]
teaching you's been one of the best things about being here.
[ He means that, too. It's good to feel useful, to feel like he's helping someone. And Cisco had never really realized, before he met Arya, just how fun it would be to share knowledge with someone. ]
i can do that.
[ In fact, pretending nothing is wrong is kind of a speciality of Cisco's. ]
teaching you's been one of the best things about being here.
[ He means that, too. It's good to feel useful, to feel like he's helping someone. And Cisco had never really realized, before he met Arya, just how fun it would be to share knowledge with someone. ]
i can do that.
[ In fact, pretending nothing is wrong is kind of a speciality of Cisco's. ]
I knew it!
It turned up in my shop when I was searching for something to wear to the burning of the ladder.
I had hoped to find a second one for Arya but I never did.
You've seen this one, haven't you?
It turned up in my shop when I was searching for something to wear to the burning of the ladder.
I had hoped to find a second one for Arya but I never did.
You've seen this one, haven't you?
It's all right. You had no way of knowing, and it was me who wanted to know about all of the Disneys.
I believe that. You are very good at explaining things, both to me and to Jon and especially to Arya, and it must come from having listened to what was asked, or in some cases just knowing what to say before it's even asked. That's a real gift.
I've talked so much I don't know what there is even left to say. (But that doesn't seem stop me from repeating it to the point of... well, even my crow is saying things now.) It might be nice to bend a new ear. If you're really not busy with something else.
Snowballs are better for throwing. (Though tossing little glass angels was strangely satisfying as well, but snow is less dangerous.)
I believe that. You are very good at explaining things, both to me and to Jon and especially to Arya, and it must come from having listened to what was asked, or in some cases just knowing what to say before it's even asked. That's a real gift.
I've talked so much I don't know what there is even left to say. (But that doesn't seem stop me from repeating it to the point of... well, even my crow is saying things now.) It might be nice to bend a new ear. If you're really not busy with something else.
Snowballs are better for throwing. (Though tossing little glass angels was strangely satisfying as well, but snow is less dangerous.)
you should probably know - and it's your call but I just wanna make sure you know - culturally speaking onesies aren't the sort of thing you wear in public, if you're over the age of like, 3. it's more of a, in the privacy of your own home type of thing. but if you wanna rock that onesie to a party i fully support you.
yeah i've seen frozen. it was pretty big there for a while.
yeah i've seen frozen. it was pretty big there for a while.
i'm not busy at all.
[ He had been working on coding a new app, but working and too busy to talk are two very different things. ]
yeah glass is better for the catharsis but i would definitely recommend protective eyewear at the very least if you are gonna do it again. did you know in my world they recently started having these places where you can pay a little money and go in and smash stuff? plates and whatever else. it's pretty genius if you ask me.
[ He had been working on coding a new app, but working and too busy to talk are two very different things. ]
yeah glass is better for the catharsis but i would definitely recommend protective eyewear at the very least if you are gonna do it again. did you know in my world they recently started having these places where you can pay a little money and go in and smash stuff? plates and whatever else. it's pretty genius if you ask me.
Do you mean glasses? Or is there a helmet or some such thing that's more protective?
I'd be willing to bet there's a room like that here, only it won't make you pay.
(...with coin.)
I'd be willing to bet there's a room like that here, only it won't make you pay.
(...with coin.)
If you liked someone as more than a friend, and that person paid you high compliments, and was very gallant and very, very charming, and always seemed pleased to see you, would you have cause to think they returned your feelings?
What if they were, upon reflection, this way with others as well? Genuinely, I mean.
What if they were, upon reflection, this way with others as well? Genuinely, I mean.
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