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Why are you saying that?
You are the better choice, for me.
And I know. Because you're a good person, you would be there for me no matter what. But I want things to stay the way they have been for the past few months. What we have is worth keeping.
I'm at home. Are you coming over?
You are the better choice, for me.
And I know. Because you're a good person, you would be there for me no matter what. But I want things to stay the way they have been for the past few months. What we have is worth keeping.
I'm at home. Are you coming over?
[ Maybe Eddie thinks that now. But once he's had a chance to get past the apologies and the sadness and the awkwardness with Iris... well. Time will tell. ]
i was gonna. unless you don't want me to.
you said you wanted talk stuff out. and... if you're sad and scared i want to help.
i was gonna. unless you don't want me to.
you said you wanted talk stuff out. and... if you're sad and scared i want to help.
[There's no denying that he still has feelings for Iris. He loves her. But after months of being with someone who's devoted to him, who only wants him, who treats him the way Cisco does...it's worth keeping. Especially when he and Iris have both moved on.
It's an incredible relief when Cisco says he'll come over.]
Of course I want you to. Now?
It's an incredible relief when Cisco says he'll come over.]
Of course I want you to. Now?
yeah, i'm on my way.
[ It takes Cisco a couple minutes to arrive. He has to clean himself up a bit, first. But there's only so much that washing his face can do, and when he lets himself in, he's noticeably red around the eyes from crying. When Eddie hadn't texted him back, well... what was he supposed to assume?
But that doesn't matter, now. He's here to make sure Eddie's okay, help him deal with Iris showing up, and all the thoughts of his death that must be surfacing.
He'd wanted to bring something to comfort Eddie. His first thought was hot chocolate, but then he'd started to overthink. What if it seemed like a ploy, to remind Eddie of that first time he'd made him hot chocolate? What if it came off as manipulative, was manipulative. So instead, he just brings coffee. It's early enough in the day for it and he knows how Eddie likes his. ]
Hey.
[ It takes Cisco a couple minutes to arrive. He has to clean himself up a bit, first. But there's only so much that washing his face can do, and when he lets himself in, he's noticeably red around the eyes from crying. When Eddie hadn't texted him back, well... what was he supposed to assume?
But that doesn't matter, now. He's here to make sure Eddie's okay, help him deal with Iris showing up, and all the thoughts of his death that must be surfacing.
He'd wanted to bring something to comfort Eddie. His first thought was hot chocolate, but then he'd started to overthink. What if it seemed like a ploy, to remind Eddie of that first time he'd made him hot chocolate? What if it came off as manipulative, was manipulative. So instead, he just brings coffee. It's early enough in the day for it and he knows how Eddie likes his. ]
Hey.
[Eddie's still texting Iris, trying to sort out the complicated mess of feelings that's going on between having her here and trying to reconnect with her all tangled up with his fear and uncertainty over his relationship with Cisco. In his mind, though, as much as he can't deny that he does still have feelings for her - that he'd almost typed 'babe' a couple times while talking to her, that he still thinks she's beautiful and kind and amazing - what he wants is what he has with Cisco. It's new, and not established, hasn't progressed far enough for them to say they love each other, but the support and care he gets from Cisco, what he feels like he can give back and how rewarding it is to gain Cisco's trust and work at making him believe in his own worth...it's something he wants desperately to keep. More than any lingering desire to be with Iris.
Cisco lets himself in and Eddie immediately notices how red his eyes are, bright despite the fact he's not noticeably crying right now. Eddie's heart leaps into his throat because he knows Cisco, knows that the tears were his fault, and he goes toward him right away, takes the cups out of his hands and puts them on the table. Without thinking, without hesitation, he's gathering him into his arms, burying a hand into his hair.]
Are you okay? I'm so sorry.
[Head ducking, he presses his face into Cisco's hair.]
Cisco lets himself in and Eddie immediately notices how red his eyes are, bright despite the fact he's not noticeably crying right now. Eddie's heart leaps into his throat because he knows Cisco, knows that the tears were his fault, and he goes toward him right away, takes the cups out of his hands and puts them on the table. Without thinking, without hesitation, he's gathering him into his arms, burying a hand into his hair.]
Are you okay? I'm so sorry.
[Head ducking, he presses his face into Cisco's hair.]
Edited 2016-05-12 01:30 (UTC)
[ There's a reason Cisco tried to give Eddie his out via text rather than in person. Easier to type I promise I'll be okay than to actually hide how much his heart is breaking at the thought of losing Eddie. He's not a good enough liar for that - not if someone's actually paying attention.
When Eddie draws him into an immediate hug, Cisco has to swallow against a tightening in his throat, eyes feeling hot all over again. He buries his face against Eddie's chest, wraps his arms tightly around him. When Eddie says he's sorry, Cisco rubs a hand up and down his back, soothing. Eddie had said he was tired and scared and sad and guilty; Cisco doesn't want that. ]
Nothing to be sorry for.
[ But most of that probably isn't about him, of course. Why would it be? Cisco speaks, voice muffled somewhat: ]
What about you? You said you're texting her, right? How's she taking it? Tell me how I can help. I- you said you were tired so I brought coffee. What else?
When Eddie draws him into an immediate hug, Cisco has to swallow against a tightening in his throat, eyes feeling hot all over again. He buries his face against Eddie's chest, wraps his arms tightly around him. When Eddie says he's sorry, Cisco rubs a hand up and down his back, soothing. Eddie had said he was tired and scared and sad and guilty; Cisco doesn't want that. ]
Nothing to be sorry for.
[ But most of that probably isn't about him, of course. Why would it be? Cisco speaks, voice muffled somewhat: ]
What about you? You said you're texting her, right? How's she taking it? Tell me how I can help. I- you said you were tired so I brought coffee. What else?
Edited 2016-05-12 01:50 (UTC)
[It's a relief, when Cisco leans against him, buries his face into his chest, and wraps his arms around him, hugging him tight. Eddie's fingers bury into Cisco's hair and he strokes at it while Cisco rubs at his back and it feels good, and comfortable, and right.]
I should've texted you sooner. I just didn't realize your text was so much, I thought you were probably saying you'd come over later or something. I didn't...it didn't even occur to me that you'd think I'd break up with you. I'm sorry I put you through that.
[Fingers closing into a gentle fist, he tugs lightly at Cisco's hair, presses his mouth against the crown of Cisco's head, and exhales warmly, eyes sinking shut.]
She wouldn't believe it was me at first. I had to send her a selfie. I apologized for leaving her and putting her through what I did, and she said I'm a... [His voice cracks slightly, but he swallows hard and catches himself.] She said I'm a good man, and that I did what I had to, and she's not angry at me.
[A pause, and another exhalation.]
She's probably going to punch me later.
I should've texted you sooner. I just didn't realize your text was so much, I thought you were probably saying you'd come over later or something. I didn't...it didn't even occur to me that you'd think I'd break up with you. I'm sorry I put you through that.
[Fingers closing into a gentle fist, he tugs lightly at Cisco's hair, presses his mouth against the crown of Cisco's head, and exhales warmly, eyes sinking shut.]
She wouldn't believe it was me at first. I had to send her a selfie. I apologized for leaving her and putting her through what I did, and she said I'm a... [His voice cracks slightly, but he swallows hard and catches himself.] She said I'm a good man, and that I did what I had to, and she's not angry at me.
[A pause, and another exhalation.]
She's probably going to punch me later.
[ Cisco has to glance back at the recent posts and make sure he hasn't missed one ]
j quick you mean?
j quick you mean?
[ A bit rude, but Harry has been known to get rude when Jesse's involved, or he thinks she might be. Cisco rolls his eyes but doesn't really mind. ]
jesse quick? that's cute.
[ It's hard to know if it would be a good thing, Jesse showing up here. On the one hand, Harry won't be separated from her and Zoom's not here, which is a bonus. On the other hand, Eobard, and all the unpredictability and pranks of the Clock. ]
send a pic of yourself to her inbox so she knows it's you?
jesse quick? that's cute.
[ It's hard to know if it would be a good thing, Jesse showing up here. On the one hand, Harry won't be separated from her and Zoom's not here, which is a bonus. On the other hand, Eobard, and all the unpredictability and pranks of the Clock. ]
send a pic of yourself to her inbox so she knows it's you?
You are a good man. Hey. [ Because he can hear the way Eddie is reigning himself in, bottling it all up, and he knows that sometimes (most times) he needs a reminder that he doesn't have to. Not around Cisco. This is what he'd asked for, why he'd wanted Cisco here so urgently. Cisco pulls back enough to reach up and set a hand against Eddie's cheek, looking up at him with warmth and conviction in his red-rimmed eyes. ] You are.
[ When he says Iris is going to punch him, Cisco smiles, small and rueful. He's seen her handiwork of that kind with Barry, any time he tries a particularly risky stunt. She has that in common with Felicity. ]
Well... as long as she only punches you a little bit. Any more and I'm gonna have some objections.
[ Cisco runs his thumb against Eddie's cheekbone, voice lower as he adds: ]
So I'm guessing that's a no on you being okay?
[ When he says Iris is going to punch him, Cisco smiles, small and rueful. He's seen her handiwork of that kind with Barry, any time he tries a particularly risky stunt. She has that in common with Felicity. ]
Well... as long as she only punches you a little bit. Any more and I'm gonna have some objections.
[ Cisco runs his thumb against Eddie's cheekbone, voice lower as he adds: ]
So I'm guessing that's a no on you being okay?
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[Eddie's eyes flick up to Cisco's face when he says that he's a good man, and he exhales a little shakily as Cisco's hand comes up to cup the side of his face, his thumb against his cheekbone, looking at him like he really believes he's a good man.
Leaning in, Eddie presses his forehead against Cisco's, his hands come up to cradle against the sides and back of Cisco's head, fingers digging through his hair. He feels a little safer, now, and he squeezes his eyes shut for a moment, lets out a shaky laugh when Cisco says she can only punch him a little.]
I deserve more than a little punch. I hurt her really badly.
[He licks his lips, eyes still half-shut as he tries to regain his composure and then Cisco asks him if it's a no on him being okay. For a moment, he's still, his throat tight, and then he speaks quietly.]
I'm not okay. [It's soft, a little ragged, but then he continues.] I'm more okay than before you got here. I need you.
Leaning in, Eddie presses his forehead against Cisco's, his hands come up to cradle against the sides and back of Cisco's head, fingers digging through his hair. He feels a little safer, now, and he squeezes his eyes shut for a moment, lets out a shaky laugh when Cisco says she can only punch him a little.]
I deserve more than a little punch. I hurt her really badly.
[He licks his lips, eyes still half-shut as he tries to regain his composure and then Cisco asks him if it's a no on him being okay. For a moment, he's still, his throat tight, and then he speaks quietly.]
I'm not okay. [It's soft, a little ragged, but then he continues.] I'm more okay than before you got here. I need you.
You also saved her life. [ Cisco lets out a breath that's a bit shaky, too, but this is stable ground, for him. Far more stable than comparing himself to Iris, thinking of how little he deserves Eddie, compared to her. How selfish he is to even consider getting in between them. This, though, he can handle. ] And mine. And now it's my job - our job - to find a way to save you, back.
[ When Eddie admits to being not okay, Cisco nods, just a little, forehead pressed against Eddie's. ] I'm here. What d'you need me to do?
[ It's possible there's not anything in particular, but he wants to offer, because he knows that asking for things can be hard for Eddie. He's too comfortable with caring for others and untrained in caring for himself. ]
D'you wanna sit down? Have some of your coffee, maybe? Skip it and go for a drink? We could have a bath? Or if you're feeling cooped up we could go for a walk?
[ He knows that one of the things that happens to Eddie when he's upset is that his imagination, his ability to think of different options, becomes limited. Cisco doesn't want to offer too many options and get him flustered, so he keeps the list limited to just a half dozen. ]
[ When Eddie admits to being not okay, Cisco nods, just a little, forehead pressed against Eddie's. ] I'm here. What d'you need me to do?
[ It's possible there's not anything in particular, but he wants to offer, because he knows that asking for things can be hard for Eddie. He's too comfortable with caring for others and untrained in caring for himself. ]
D'you wanna sit down? Have some of your coffee, maybe? Skip it and go for a drink? We could have a bath? Or if you're feeling cooped up we could go for a walk?
[ He knows that one of the things that happens to Eddie when he's upset is that his imagination, his ability to think of different options, becomes limited. Cisco doesn't want to offer too many options and get him flustered, so he keeps the list limited to just a half dozen. ]
If it's something he wants to share.
[ Cisco doesn't have to ask Eddie to tell her if it's going to make Eddie comfortable. There's no need for that -- the fact that Eddie can't leave is probably more important than the reason why. Besides, Eddie doesn't owe her any information. She hasn't exactly told him much.
Arya looks down at her ice cream but nods, slowly, to show that she's understood Cisco's proposition. She doesn't entirely understand why he's offering -- three people is a lot to bring into your home, to take care of, even if it's just temporary. Because Arya doesn't doubt that there's a lot for her and her siblings to get used to in Central City, far more than just movies and cars. It's a completely different culture there, a different way of life. A different world.
But that doesn't bother Arya too much, all things considered. What gives her pause is that she's heard this promise before. Yoren promised to bring her to Jon; the Hound promised to bring her to her aunt. Both men failed, and both men died because of it. How could Cisco ever succeed? Arya can't hope, not after watching Yoren burn with a village and the Hound bleed out by the river.
But Cisco also has a plan, and more importantly, this is something he wants to do. Not for the money, not out of some sense of duty to Arya's dead father, but because he cares about her. That maybe, just maybe, he likes Arya for who she is and not for what she can do for him.
Her eyes are glassy, but underneath that wetness is a smile. She nudges Cisco's foot with her own. ]
Are you this nice to everybody? Is that a Central City custom?
[ Cisco doesn't have to ask Eddie to tell her if it's going to make Eddie comfortable. There's no need for that -- the fact that Eddie can't leave is probably more important than the reason why. Besides, Eddie doesn't owe her any information. She hasn't exactly told him much.
Arya looks down at her ice cream but nods, slowly, to show that she's understood Cisco's proposition. She doesn't entirely understand why he's offering -- three people is a lot to bring into your home, to take care of, even if it's just temporary. Because Arya doesn't doubt that there's a lot for her and her siblings to get used to in Central City, far more than just movies and cars. It's a completely different culture there, a different way of life. A different world.
But that doesn't bother Arya too much, all things considered. What gives her pause is that she's heard this promise before. Yoren promised to bring her to Jon; the Hound promised to bring her to her aunt. Both men failed, and both men died because of it. How could Cisco ever succeed? Arya can't hope, not after watching Yoren burn with a village and the Hound bleed out by the river.
But Cisco also has a plan, and more importantly, this is something he wants to do. Not for the money, not out of some sense of duty to Arya's dead father, but because he cares about her. That maybe, just maybe, he likes Arya for who she is and not for what she can do for him.
Her eyes are glassy, but underneath that wetness is a smile. She nudges Cisco's foot with her own. ]
Are you this nice to everybody? Is that a Central City custom?
[Eddie doesn't miss the way Cisco is speaking, including Iris into what he's saying about things that have always been about them, and there's a momentary surge of frustration. Of irritation that Cisco won't believe him, won't trust his loyalty. Part of him wants to shake Cisco, snap him out of it, make him realize that it isn't a matter of being better or who deserves what - that it's about what Eddie wants for himself.
Instead, he just squeezes his fingers into Cisco's hair and then leans in, after Cisco gives him so many options his head spins, and kisses him. Parting his lips, he gently holds Cisco's head in place, tilts his head, and kisses him as deep and intent as he can get away with, tries to pour all his emotions into it, express his want. To assert how much he wants this.
After a few moments, he pulls back, breathing a little heavily.]
Let's have a bath, together? You can tell me how she is at home, what's going on with her so I can figure out how to talk to her about this.
Instead, he just squeezes his fingers into Cisco's hair and then leans in, after Cisco gives him so many options his head spins, and kisses him. Parting his lips, he gently holds Cisco's head in place, tilts his head, and kisses him as deep and intent as he can get away with, tries to pour all his emotions into it, express his want. To assert how much he wants this.
After a few moments, he pulls back, breathing a little heavily.]
Let's have a bath, together? You can tell me how she is at home, what's going on with her so I can figure out how to talk to her about this.
Edited 2016-05-13 17:33 (UTC)
[ The kiss catches Cisco off-guard; he doesn't respond for a second or two, except to draw in a rather shaky breath. But then he is kissing back for all he's worth, matching Eddie's intensity with his own. It does far more good than the texts, than the spoken reassurances. In Cisco's experience, it's far harder to lie with a kiss than with words. Besides, he reminds himself. Eddie's not a liar. He's not a puzzle that Cisco has to fret over and pick apart; he says what he means, so if he says he chooses Cisco... ]
Okay. Right. Bath.
[ Cisco doesn't want to let go of Eddie, so he clings to his side as they make their way to the bathroom. Which, perhaps he ought to be embarrassed by that, but he isn't. Not after he'd spent half an hour crying his eyes out and thinking it was going to be like Kendra all over again, but much, much worse this time. Maybe it had been foolish, to jump to conclusions. Eddie had told him all those months ago he wasn't thinking of Cisco as just a placeholder. Cisco had believed him. And they'd been through a lot together since then.
But all that had gone out the window the second Eddie said not to tell Iris about them. ]
She's further in the timeline than me. By about a month, I think. So... keep that in mind.
Okay. Right. Bath.
[ Cisco doesn't want to let go of Eddie, so he clings to his side as they make their way to the bathroom. Which, perhaps he ought to be embarrassed by that, but he isn't. Not after he'd spent half an hour crying his eyes out and thinking it was going to be like Kendra all over again, but much, much worse this time. Maybe it had been foolish, to jump to conclusions. Eddie had told him all those months ago he wasn't thinking of Cisco as just a placeholder. Cisco had believed him. And they'd been through a lot together since then.
But all that had gone out the window the second Eddie said not to tell Iris about them. ]
She's further in the timeline than me. By about a month, I think. So... keep that in mind.
[At first, Cisco doesn't respond to the kiss, and Eddie's gut goes tight and cold, feels like it's dropping out of him. But then, suddenly, Cisco relaxes, becomes warm and responds with an intensity that makes the tightness in his chest loosen, and he drags that kiss out as long as he can.
When he pulls away from it and Cisco clings against his side, it feels better. He feels safer. Picks up the cups of coffee because he wants the bath and the coffee Cisco brought him both, and starts the hot water. While the tub fills, he turns to Cisco and starts pulling his boyfriend's shirt up, bundling it in his hands, wanting the intimacy of doing it.]
Okay. She just...seems so different. Its been a year, though, for her? Do you know if...if she's moved on and everything?
[He remembers Barry saying they hadn't hooked up, and Eddie's afraid he's moved on in a few months and she's held on, still wants him. The difference in their circumstances changes everything, of course, he rationalizes it to himself - he'd been more ready to give up on the relationship, his death had been on his terms and not hers, he'd been working on letting go of his life at home, while she had been clinging to their relationship more strongly, had lost him in a tragic way that likely erased his flaws from her mind a little.
But there's still the guilt about it. About getting over her faster than she got over him, if that's the case. He's almost afraid to hear Cisco's answer.]
When he pulls away from it and Cisco clings against his side, it feels better. He feels safer. Picks up the cups of coffee because he wants the bath and the coffee Cisco brought him both, and starts the hot water. While the tub fills, he turns to Cisco and starts pulling his boyfriend's shirt up, bundling it in his hands, wanting the intimacy of doing it.]
Okay. She just...seems so different. Its been a year, though, for her? Do you know if...if she's moved on and everything?
[He remembers Barry saying they hadn't hooked up, and Eddie's afraid he's moved on in a few months and she's held on, still wants him. The difference in their circumstances changes everything, of course, he rationalizes it to himself - he'd been more ready to give up on the relationship, his death had been on his terms and not hers, he'd been working on letting go of his life at home, while she had been clinging to their relationship more strongly, had lost him in a tragic way that likely erased his flaws from her mind a little.
But there's still the guilt about it. About getting over her faster than she got over him, if that's the case. He's almost afraid to hear Cisco's answer.]
Edited 2016-05-13 22:31 (UTC)
how much did you tell her about him? like, will she even recognize the name thawne?
[ Surely their pact of silence doesn't apply to Harry's own daughter. That's absurd. There's no way they're not warning her, if she isn't watching out already. They can say she already knew from back home and any inconsistencies could be dismissed as disorientation from being brought here. ]
[ Surely their pact of silence doesn't apply to Harry's own daughter. That's absurd. There's no way they're not warning her, if she isn't watching out already. They can say she already knew from back home and any inconsistencies could be dismissed as disorientation from being brought here. ]
[ When Arya goes quiet and her eyes start getting teary, Cisco worries that maybe he's made a mistake. He does his best with Arya, but he is still all too conscious of the fact that she is a deeply traumatized child and that he is vastly under-qualified to offer her the kind of support she actually needs. But then she smiles, asks if niceness is a policy, and he relaxes slightly. He nudges her foot back. ]
Not everybody.
[ He wants to help everyone in this place to get where they want to be, but Arya is the only one he would offer his own home to. ]
You're my friend, and you deserve a fresh start somewhere you have a chance to be the person you wanna be.
[ Arya has already been displaced so many times, been on the run, been without a safe place to call her own. The transition to another world would be hard, but she is used to upheaval, and she's young still. ]
Did you know my parents weren't from Central City originally? They came there from somewhere else, left everything they had behind, to start over in a place where they didn't know anyone, because they thought it would be a better life. And I'm really lucky they did. So if I can help you make a place for yourself in Central City, that feels like I'm passing it along, y'know?
Not everybody.
[ He wants to help everyone in this place to get where they want to be, but Arya is the only one he would offer his own home to. ]
You're my friend, and you deserve a fresh start somewhere you have a chance to be the person you wanna be.
[ Arya has already been displaced so many times, been on the run, been without a safe place to call her own. The transition to another world would be hard, but she is used to upheaval, and she's young still. ]
Did you know my parents weren't from Central City originally? They came there from somewhere else, left everything they had behind, to start over in a place where they didn't know anyone, because they thought it would be a better life. And I'm really lucky they did. So if I can help you make a place for yourself in Central City, that feels like I'm passing it along, y'know?
yeah.
i mean, none of us told her, either. didn't really seem relevant.
[ Maybe it would have been, if she'd been around when they were first getting used to Harry and everything was so fraught, but they'd had time to adjust and get to know him for him before she came into their lives. ]
we're gonna have to tell her now.
[ Then, because he knows that Harry being Harry, he's probably starting to worry himself sick already. ]
he's not like zoom. he's evil but they don't think the same. thawne never kidnapped joe or iris to make barry get faster. he has other ways of playing people.
i mean, none of us told her, either. didn't really seem relevant.
[ Maybe it would have been, if she'd been around when they were first getting used to Harry and everything was so fraught, but they'd had time to adjust and get to know him for him before she came into their lives. ]
we're gonna have to tell her now.
[ Then, because he knows that Harry being Harry, he's probably starting to worry himself sick already. ]
he's not like zoom. he's evil but they don't think the same. thawne never kidnapped joe or iris to make barry get faster. he has other ways of playing people.
I guess she is kinda different. She's been helping us a lot. With the breachers, and Zoom. Plus, there was all the stuff with finding out Joe lied about her mom being dead, and then her mom actually dying, and taking care of Wally cause he went kinda off the rails a little after his mom died and Iris had to kind of step up and be a big sister to him.
[ He talks as Eddie pulls his shirt off, loud enough to be heard over the water. Some of this he'd heard from Iris, some from Joe, some from Barry. The changes had happened gradually enough that Cisco didn't see them necessarily, but when he thinks back to the way Iris had been around the time she first learned Barry's secret, or back when she'd been running her anonymous blog, he realizes she's quite a bit different. They all are.
And he lists these other things because Eddie wanted Cisco to catch him up, and also so he'll realize that it isn't all down to losing him. Some of it, yes. But not all of it. ]
I might have overheard something about her going on a date with the editor of her paper. That was like, a couple days before I came back here. I don't think she went out with anyone before that, but it's possible she did and I just didn't hear about it.
[ Cisco doesn't know if it would be better or worse for Eddie, hearing that Iris had taken almost a year to go on another date. On the one hand, it might make him feel guilty for the grief he'd caused her. On the other hand, if she'd moved on too quickly, that would probably make him feel insignificant, unimportant. Hopefully it's not a lose-lose situation.
He kicks off his shoes and socks, strips down the rest of the way and tests the temperature of the water, but he keeps his eyes on Eddie, cautious, concerned. ]
[ He talks as Eddie pulls his shirt off, loud enough to be heard over the water. Some of this he'd heard from Iris, some from Joe, some from Barry. The changes had happened gradually enough that Cisco didn't see them necessarily, but when he thinks back to the way Iris had been around the time she first learned Barry's secret, or back when she'd been running her anonymous blog, he realizes she's quite a bit different. They all are.
And he lists these other things because Eddie wanted Cisco to catch him up, and also so he'll realize that it isn't all down to losing him. Some of it, yes. But not all of it. ]
I might have overheard something about her going on a date with the editor of her paper. That was like, a couple days before I came back here. I don't think she went out with anyone before that, but it's possible she did and I just didn't hear about it.
[ Cisco doesn't know if it would be better or worse for Eddie, hearing that Iris had taken almost a year to go on another date. On the one hand, it might make him feel guilty for the grief he'd caused her. On the other hand, if she'd moved on too quickly, that would probably make him feel insignificant, unimportant. Hopefully it's not a lose-lose situation.
He kicks off his shoes and socks, strips down the rest of the way and tests the temperature of the water, but he keeps his eyes on Eddie, cautious, concerned. ]
I know.
[ There's a long pause in between messages as he debates internally. His first instinct is to duck it, to wait until she comes asking. Reiterate that he's a bad man and leave it at that. But she'd been so furious about the particle accelerator— and then Turtle. Even if Thawne wasn't his fault, keeping everything about him from her would be. ]
You know what I'm going to ask you and Allen to do
[ There's a long pause in between messages as he debates internally. His first instinct is to duck it, to wait until she comes asking. Reiterate that he's a bad man and leave it at that. But she'd been so furious about the particle accelerator— and then Turtle. Even if Thawne wasn't his fault, keeping everything about him from her would be. ]
You know what I'm going to ask you and Allen to do
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