[At first, Cisco doesn't respond to the kiss, and Eddie's gut goes tight and cold, feels like it's dropping out of him. But then, suddenly, Cisco relaxes, becomes warm and responds with an intensity that makes the tightness in his chest loosen, and he drags that kiss out as long as he can.
When he pulls away from it and Cisco clings against his side, it feels better. He feels safer. Picks up the cups of coffee because he wants the bath and the coffee Cisco brought him both, and starts the hot water. While the tub fills, he turns to Cisco and starts pulling his boyfriend's shirt up, bundling it in his hands, wanting the intimacy of doing it.]
Okay. She just...seems so different. Its been a year, though, for her? Do you know if...if she's moved on and everything?
[He remembers Barry saying they hadn't hooked up, and Eddie's afraid he's moved on in a few months and she's held on, still wants him. The difference in their circumstances changes everything, of course, he rationalizes it to himself - he'd been more ready to give up on the relationship, his death had been on his terms and not hers, he'd been working on letting go of his life at home, while she had been clinging to their relationship more strongly, had lost him in a tragic way that likely erased his flaws from her mind a little.
But there's still the guilt about it. About getting over her faster than she got over him, if that's the case. He's almost afraid to hear Cisco's answer.]
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When he pulls away from it and Cisco clings against his side, it feels better. He feels safer. Picks up the cups of coffee because he wants the bath and the coffee Cisco brought him both, and starts the hot water. While the tub fills, he turns to Cisco and starts pulling his boyfriend's shirt up, bundling it in his hands, wanting the intimacy of doing it.]
Okay. She just...seems so different. Its been a year, though, for her? Do you know if...if she's moved on and everything?
[He remembers Barry saying they hadn't hooked up, and Eddie's afraid he's moved on in a few months and she's held on, still wants him. The difference in their circumstances changes everything, of course, he rationalizes it to himself - he'd been more ready to give up on the relationship, his death had been on his terms and not hers, he'd been working on letting go of his life at home, while she had been clinging to their relationship more strongly, had lost him in a tragic way that likely erased his flaws from her mind a little.
But there's still the guilt about it. About getting over her faster than she got over him, if that's the case. He's almost afraid to hear Cisco's answer.]