[ Cisco settles into the bath with him, leaning back against Eddie's chest. It's comfortable, and familiar, which helps Cisco to move past the self-consciousness that he's feeling. He sighs, takes a deep breath of the steamy air, adjusts his position so that he can see at least a bit of Eddie's face.
He and Eddie hadn't talked about Iris, too much, before this. More than anyone else, she reminds Eddie of what he'd lost. More than anyone else, for better or worse, she is the focus of his feelings of guilt, and regret, and insecurity. Cisco understands a little bit now that that was true even before he died. He knows that Eddie hadn't just killed himself to save the rest of them, even if that was the main reason. Part of him had felt irrelevant, like he didn't deserve her, because of what Eobard had said to him while he was down in the pipeline.
Cisco takes Eddie's hand and threads their fingers together, settling Eddie's palm over his heart. He remembers the first time they'd done this, after Snart had concussed Eddie and locked him up, and they hadn't found him for hours. Iris probably would've found him sooner his brain suggests, unhelpfully. ]
But she- now that you're both here, she might not want to move on.
[ He's sure the possibility has occurred to both of them. Which would put Eddie in a very unenviable position. Cisco swallows and says in a rush: ]
If you think she's gonna be angry or upset and you want me to tell her, I can do that. I'd rather she get get mad at me than at you.
[ Cisco had been the one to steal Eddie away, as it were. It shouldn't be Eddie's responsibility to tell her that, in addition to the guilt he's still feeling over how he'd died. But even Cisco being the one to do it seems wrong. It's all wrong. Being with Eddie feels right - more right than anything else in his life for a long time - but that's just selfishness. ]
Are you sure?
[ The question comes out soft, hoarse, and Cisco isn't looking at Eddie anymore, but down at his knees standing out over the water. Things have changed since that conversation of theirs. Eddie had assumed there was no way out of this place, for him. He'd been in a bad place about his death still - moreso, Cisco thinks, than he is now. There had been a lot of factors that made him dismiss the thought of getting back together with Iris which no longer apply, now. ]
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He and Eddie hadn't talked about Iris, too much, before this. More than anyone else, she reminds Eddie of what he'd lost. More than anyone else, for better or worse, she is the focus of his feelings of guilt, and regret, and insecurity. Cisco understands a little bit now that that was true even before he died. He knows that Eddie hadn't just killed himself to save the rest of them, even if that was the main reason. Part of him had felt irrelevant, like he didn't deserve her, because of what Eobard had said to him while he was down in the pipeline.
Cisco takes Eddie's hand and threads their fingers together, settling Eddie's palm over his heart. He remembers the first time they'd done this, after Snart had concussed Eddie and locked him up, and they hadn't found him for hours. Iris probably would've found him sooner his brain suggests, unhelpfully. ]
But she- now that you're both here, she might not want to move on.
[ He's sure the possibility has occurred to both of them. Which would put Eddie in a very unenviable position. Cisco swallows and says in a rush: ]
If you think she's gonna be angry or upset and you want me to tell her, I can do that. I'd rather she get get mad at me than at you.
[ Cisco had been the one to steal Eddie away, as it were. It shouldn't be Eddie's responsibility to tell her that, in addition to the guilt he's still feeling over how he'd died. But even Cisco being the one to do it seems wrong. It's all wrong. Being with Eddie feels right - more right than anything else in his life for a long time - but that's just selfishness. ]
Are you sure?
[ The question comes out soft, hoarse, and Cisco isn't looking at Eddie anymore, but down at his knees standing out over the water. Things have changed since that conversation of theirs. Eddie had assumed there was no way out of this place, for him. He'd been in a bad place about his death still - moreso, Cisco thinks, than he is now. There had been a lot of factors that made him dismiss the thought of getting back together with Iris which no longer apply, now. ]