[ It's his last few words that jar him out of his passive state. Harrison sucks in a bit of air, resisting the urge to immediately be combative in response. It's a kneejerk reaction, he knows, and one he still has trouble tempering. It's easier now, at least, with Cisco a constant warm presence at his back. After a moment, he speaks softly, roughly. ]
You don't want to hear about it.
[ Because he doesn't want to talk about it, doesn't want to think about it even though it's all he can think about right now. He puts an emphasis on don't, making it clear that he knows Cisco wants to know and hear whatever he has to say. It's that it's something that he shouldn't hear. Shouldn't deal with. It wasn't even guilt over Gray; he wasn't responsible for what had happened to him. It was a shame but that was Thawne's accelerator, not his. Still. How many like Gray existed on his Earth? How many children had been ripped away from their parents — like his daughter was taken from him — because the dark matter had suddenly changed them? He may not be responsible for the choices that some metahumans make, but he knows all too well in how complicit he is in most else. How much he had to make up for.
Harrison lifts up a hand to rub at his forehead. ]
no subject
You don't want to hear about it.
[ Because he doesn't want to talk about it, doesn't want to think about it even though it's all he can think about right now. He puts an emphasis on don't, making it clear that he knows Cisco wants to know and hear whatever he has to say. It's that it's something that he shouldn't hear. Shouldn't deal with. It wasn't even guilt over Gray; he wasn't responsible for what had happened to him. It was a shame but that was Thawne's accelerator, not his. Still. How many like Gray existed on his Earth? How many children had been ripped away from their parents — like his daughter was taken from him — because the dark matter had suddenly changed them? He may not be responsible for the choices that some metahumans make, but he knows all too well in how complicit he is in most else. How much he had to make up for.
Harrison lifts up a hand to rub at his forehead. ]
It'll pass.