[ He is surprised by how quickly the answer comes - instantaneously, like a reflex. The thought of being on his own, with nothing and no one to distract him from his own memories, is an awful one. Even if he tried to make himself care about seeing the sights in a different city, he doubts it would work very well. But what alternative is there? ]
But I don't think I can... I'm not gonna be able to be normal, so I should be.
[ The statement makes sense, according to Cisco's logic. If he can't manage to be pleasant to be around, then of course the only solution is to remove himself from his friends and family temporarily, so they won't have to deal with him. It's the same logic as calling out of work sick - his role as a friend and a partner is to help, to make Barry laugh, make Caitlin smile, to help Joe with his investigations. To know when Harry's grunt means 'hand me the wrench'. ]
It's not a big deal anyway.
[ He really tries to sound like he means that, but it's hard to be very convincing when his voice is rough with emotion that he is trying to keep pushed down, contained, manageable. ]
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[ He is surprised by how quickly the answer comes - instantaneously, like a reflex. The thought of being on his own, with nothing and no one to distract him from his own memories, is an awful one. Even if he tried to make himself care about seeing the sights in a different city, he doubts it would work very well. But what alternative is there? ]
But I don't think I can... I'm not gonna be able to be normal, so I should be.
[ The statement makes sense, according to Cisco's logic. If he can't manage to be pleasant to be around, then of course the only solution is to remove himself from his friends and family temporarily, so they won't have to deal with him. It's the same logic as calling out of work sick - his role as a friend and a partner is to help, to make Barry laugh, make Caitlin smile, to help Joe with his investigations. To know when Harry's grunt means 'hand me the wrench'. ]
It's not a big deal anyway.
[ He really tries to sound like he means that, but it's hard to be very convincing when his voice is rough with emotion that he is trying to keep pushed down, contained, manageable. ]