[ When Harry says there would be other reasons to think he was crazy than talking about time travel, Cisco rolls his eyes and manages a tiny smile. It's good, though. The attempt at humor, even if it isn't exactly Harry's best joke. It reminds Cisco, in a roundabout way, that there is more to him than this. Sure, everything with Eobard had changed him, and it's a part of him, but it's not all of him. And even if it all is looming large today, that doesn't mean it will tomorrow, or the day after.
His instincts are still telling him that once he can, he should go back to ignoring it all, pretending it didn't happen, trying to will himself to forget about it. But if he's reacting this intensely, after a year, it would seem that that strategy isn't exactly working. He is a few seconds from dismissing the journal idea out of hand, but he stops himself and actually considers. Apart from feeling a little silly about it, there's no real downside. If he didn't like it, he could always just stop. There would be no reason to lie, if he were only writing it down for himself. He could include all the parts that are too awful even to tell Harry, and he wouldn't need to worry about anyone's opinion of him changing. So long as he kept it safe. ]
Maybe. If I wrote it in code...
[ Cisco scrubs a hand over his face, trying to chase away the cobwebs. But of course, that could only do so much when they were still sitting here together, in this lab, which feels too full of memories. Abruptly, he gets to his feet. ]
You ever been to Midway before? I hear the zoo's pretty rad.
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His instincts are still telling him that once he can, he should go back to ignoring it all, pretending it didn't happen, trying to will himself to forget about it. But if he's reacting this intensely, after a year, it would seem that that strategy isn't exactly working. He is a few seconds from dismissing the journal idea out of hand, but he stops himself and actually considers. Apart from feeling a little silly about it, there's no real downside. If he didn't like it, he could always just stop. There would be no reason to lie, if he were only writing it down for himself. He could include all the parts that are too awful even to tell Harry, and he wouldn't need to worry about anyone's opinion of him changing. So long as he kept it safe. ]
Maybe. If I wrote it in code...
[ Cisco scrubs a hand over his face, trying to chase away the cobwebs. But of course, that could only do so much when they were still sitting here together, in this lab, which feels too full of memories. Abruptly, he gets to his feet. ]
You ever been to Midway before? I hear the zoo's pretty rad.