[ Cisco keeps on moving his hand over Eddie's hair; he can hear the shakiness and emotion in his breathing, even though he is getting the words out okay. And Cisco knows, has seen first-hand, enough of how Eddie deals with stress and sadness to know that any outward sign at all is a pretty big deal. ]
I think your sample size might be a little too small on the whole "everybody wants to go home" thing.
[ He bites down on his bottom lip for just a moment, then decides. This wasn't something he'd been planning on really saying aloud - at least not any time soon - but keeping quiet about it now would be silly, and pointless. ]
I don't.
[ Cisco says it quietly, with a little shrug that Eddie will be able to feel if not see. He knows Eddie is talking about potential romantic partners, and of course that category doesn't encompass him. But may as well tell Eddie now rather than later that he intends to stick around. ]
And I've met loads of other people who feel the same way. I mean, I ask people all the time and I'd say it's about 70/30, and the 30 is the people who want to go back where they came from. Everybody else either can't, like you, or... or they don't want to, like me.
[ He watches Eddie turning off the TV, the way his movements are slow and a little hollow. ]
Not to be completely juvenile, but, are too.
[ Cisco tilts his head to the side, resting his temple against Eddie's head. Jokes aren't what Eddie needs, right now. And jokes might be easier, but Cisco can do the hard, right thing, too. ]
But seriously. I'm saying that from a place of like... I mean, it's not exactly the same, but from a place of spending a lot of fucking years working really hard to convince myself of the same thing. Growing up, I was never the priority. Like... I know how that sounds, but. Just trust me. I wasn't. Lot of the time I didn't even make the list. And I spent a long time just figuring that was the way things should be. But it wasn't. And it's not the way things should be with you and people you're dating, either.
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I think your sample size might be a little too small on the whole "everybody wants to go home" thing.
[ He bites down on his bottom lip for just a moment, then decides. This wasn't something he'd been planning on really saying aloud - at least not any time soon - but keeping quiet about it now would be silly, and pointless. ]
I don't.
[ Cisco says it quietly, with a little shrug that Eddie will be able to feel if not see. He knows Eddie is talking about potential romantic partners, and of course that category doesn't encompass him. But may as well tell Eddie now rather than later that he intends to stick around. ]
And I've met loads of other people who feel the same way. I mean, I ask people all the time and I'd say it's about 70/30, and the 30 is the people who want to go back where they came from. Everybody else either can't, like you, or... or they don't want to, like me.
[ He watches Eddie turning off the TV, the way his movements are slow and a little hollow. ]
Not to be completely juvenile, but, are too.
[ Cisco tilts his head to the side, resting his temple against Eddie's head. Jokes aren't what Eddie needs, right now. And jokes might be easier, but Cisco can do the hard, right thing, too. ]
But seriously. I'm saying that from a place of like... I mean, it's not exactly the same, but from a place of spending a lot of fucking years working really hard to convince myself of the same thing. Growing up, I was never the priority. Like... I know how that sounds, but. Just trust me. I wasn't. Lot of the time I didn't even make the list. And I spent a long time just figuring that was the way things should be. But it wasn't. And it's not the way things should be with you and people you're dating, either.