I am glad it is helping. Well. Not glad, perhaps, but I do very much want to help.
The two of you?
[ Arya ordinarily wouldn't pry here, but "the two of us" could refer to a number of different kinds of relationships, and Arya is still worried for Jon and Sansa. ]
i was too self-centered before. the only reason snart took my brother and hurt him was to make ME do something, to protect him. so when he showed up here, i told eddie to make sure snart didn't know he was someone i cared about, so snart wouldn't pull the same stunt. i thought that the only way he would be in danger was if it had to do with me. but i was stupid, and wrong.
[ ...Not the most honest or most courageous of answers, but he doesn't think he could really stand explaining how his relationship with Eddie has changed recently. Not right now, when he's so upset. ]
i'll draw you a sketch of it. after this is over. after we find him.
No, you were not too self-centered. If anything, I think you were too hopeful that Snart may not be as evil as he truly is. And there is something to be said for having hope instead of fear.
[ Arya debates on whether or not she should send the rest of the message, if it would help anything at all. But it's probably better to say something than to stay silent, so she writes: ]
Snart is evil. Evil people do not need a reason to hurt others -- that is what makes them evil. You will go crazy, trying to figure out their motives, their patterns. It is impossible.
I have tried.
I still do not know why the Lannisters executed my father. I know he was no traitor. He was the Hand of the king, and the king's close friend as well. I thought he was not in danger, and I was also wrong. I've thought about it for years and years, and I am no closer to understanding than I was on the day it happened.
I know I am probably in no position to tell you these things. I do not know Eddie like you do, and most days I cannot even follow my own advice. But I do not want to see blame eating you up. You have enough enemies, you need not be enemies with yourself.
[ Arya has one point: Cisco hasn't ever succeeded at predicting those patterns, no matter how hard he tries. But he's not sure he knows how to stop trying.
Even amidst his unhappiness and worry, he is touched by her concern for him, her kindness. Maybe he would be able to believe what she says is true, if that were the only reason he has to blame himself. But there are many others. Still, her advice jostles him into focusing on the enemies at hand. He can hate himself for the part he played in all this later. For now, he needs to keep his mind on finding Eddie, helping Eddie. ]
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The two of you?
[ Arya ordinarily wouldn't pry here, but "the two of us" could refer to a number of different kinds of relationships, and Arya is still worried for Jon and Sansa. ]
What does the cold gun look like?
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i was too self-centered before. the only reason snart took my brother and hurt him was to make ME do something, to protect him. so when he showed up here, i told eddie to make sure snart didn't know he was someone i cared about, so snart wouldn't pull the same stunt. i thought that the only way he would be in danger was if it had to do with me. but i was stupid, and wrong.
[ ...Not the most honest or most courageous of answers, but he doesn't think he could really stand explaining how his relationship with Eddie has changed recently. Not right now, when he's so upset. ]
i'll draw you a sketch of it. after this is over. after we find him.
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[ Arya debates on whether or not she should send the rest of the message, if it would help anything at all. But it's probably better to say something than to stay silent, so she writes: ]
Snart is evil. Evil people do not need a reason to hurt others -- that is what makes them evil. You will go crazy, trying to figure out their motives, their patterns. It is impossible.
I have tried.
I still do not know why the Lannisters executed my father. I know he was no traitor. He was the Hand of the king, and the king's close friend as well. I thought he was not in danger, and I was also wrong. I've thought about it for years and years, and I am no closer to understanding than I was on the day it happened.
I know I am probably in no position to tell you these things. I do not know Eddie like you do, and most days I cannot even follow my own advice. But I do not want to see blame eating you up. You have enough enemies, you need not be enemies with yourself.
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Even amidst his unhappiness and worry, he is touched by her concern for him, her kindness. Maybe he would be able to believe what she says is true, if that were the only reason he has to blame himself. But there are many others. Still, her advice jostles him into focusing on the enemies at hand. He can hate himself for the part he played in all this later. For now, he needs to keep his mind on finding Eddie, helping Eddie. ]
i'll do my best.
........thank you.