to be honest I don't even know what to say. I got lucky I guess in that while I was a ghost I figured out how to communicate with other people out there stuck in the veil too, so at least I wasn't totally alone when I was trying to deal with everything. Aside from them though? No one's really asked how I felt about dying. Like. The guys I was staying with, it's not like they didn't care but they were way more focused on themselves. It's weird to even have someone ask how I feel about something and like...genuinely care.
Idk maybe that sounds too pathetic but it's almost made it harder here where people do care because it brings back up all those feelings. Which a therapist would probably say is a good thing, but it's hard. I'm sure you get that.
that's good that you had, like, ghost solidarity at least.
:/ yeah, i get that. i get that hard. it's totally weird having people give a shit about you when you're used to... not that.
look you don't have to answer if you don't want to, but i gotta ask... why would an angel want to kill you? i mean, i thought you were on their side, generally speaking?
so, i can tell you the whole long story if you want but to answer your question... for a prophet of the lord i didn't really spend a lot of time with angels? and my prophet powers are kind of crappy. all i can do is read these tablets written in a special language that no one else can read, angels included, but what's written on those tablets is all the rules of heaven, hell, and purgatory. that's why the king of hell wanted me -- to read that tablet for him.
and the angel who wrote the tablets, metatron, came back from wherever he was and decided he wanted to control heaven. and he knew that what was written on the tablets could help people fight him, so i was dangerous. he got the angel possessing my friend to smite me. like an hour after i told that guy's brother that i always wind up screwed whenever i help them do anything.
i guess in that case i was being a more traditional prophet in that i told my own future.
the ironic thing was that a few months before, the king of hell was literally choking me to death and metatron saved me. that was his big return from wherever. honestly if i had to die, i wish he would've just let crowley kill me because i was in the middle of a really badass moment. when i did die, i was just in the middle of eating a sandwich.
so it was less seeing the future or getting divine inspiration and more... like, just translating?
[ It's a lot more mundane than Cisco had thought it would be, considering the only vibe he'd had of Kevin had been pretty action-oriented and badass. Of course, it had still been enough to get him killed. But Cisco doesn't worry so much about making light of it, since that's what Kevin is doing, anyway. ]
i'd say it's doubly ironic - predicting things would go bad and then they did, and the guy who had you killed had saved you before. that's like dozen alanis morissette's worth of irony right there.
and i feel that, bro. if you have to bite the big one you want it to be something spectacular. like... this friend of mine. he died in a literal blaze of glory, closing a singularity that opened up over the city that would have killed everyone on the planet if it hadn't been for him. if you've gotta go, that's the way to do it. doing something that matters. saving people. not... just out of nowhere, because you're inconvenient to someone's evil plan.
[ Again, the details were different, but there's enough similarities there for Cisco to relate. There hadn't been any sandwiches in sight, but both his deaths had been... pretty pathetic, all things considered. ]
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Idk maybe that sounds too pathetic but it's almost made it harder here where people do care because it brings back up all those feelings. Which a therapist would probably say is a good thing, but it's hard. I'm sure you get that.
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:/ yeah, i get that. i get that hard. it's totally weird having people give a shit about you when you're used to... not that.
look you don't have to answer if you don't want to, but i gotta ask... why would an angel want to kill you? i mean, i thought you were on their side, generally speaking?
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and the angel who wrote the tablets, metatron, came back from wherever he was and decided he wanted to control heaven. and he knew that what was written on the tablets could help people fight him, so i was dangerous. he got the angel possessing my friend to smite me. like an hour after i told that guy's brother that i always wind up screwed whenever i help them do anything.
i guess in that case i was being a more traditional prophet in that i told my own future.
the ironic thing was that a few months before, the king of hell was literally choking me to death and metatron saved me. that was his big return from wherever. honestly if i had to die, i wish he would've just let crowley kill me because i was in the middle of a really badass moment. when i did die, i was just in the middle of eating a sandwich.
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[ It's a lot more mundane than Cisco had thought it would be, considering the only vibe he'd had of Kevin had been pretty action-oriented and badass. Of course, it had still been enough to get him killed. But Cisco doesn't worry so much about making light of it, since that's what Kevin is doing, anyway. ]
i'd say it's doubly ironic - predicting things would go bad and then they did, and the guy who had you killed had saved you before. that's like dozen alanis morissette's worth of irony right there.
and i feel that, bro. if you have to bite the big one you want it to be something spectacular. like... this friend of mine. he died in a literal blaze of glory, closing a singularity that opened up over the city that would have killed everyone on the planet if it hadn't been for him. if you've gotta go, that's the way to do it. doing something that matters. saving people. not... just out of nowhere, because you're inconvenient to someone's evil plan.
[ Again, the details were different, but there's enough similarities there for Cisco to relate. There hadn't been any sandwiches in sight, but both his deaths had been... pretty pathetic, all things considered. ]
still i guess you got those months.