[It's not anger, exactly. Not at Cisco, at least. That's just a feeling of being stung, a little. Stung that Cisco hadn't told him, even though he knows all the reasons. The anger is at Eobard, for somehow finding a way to come back, to hurt the people he cares about again, despite everything he'd done. Everything he'd given up.]
Almost dying wasn't on your mind?
Oh my god.
Of course you were angry at him. He's an asshole! He can't just keep doing this. And no, I'm not going to blame you and Barry, this is on HIM. It always will be on him.
babe, i've almost died like a LOT of times doing team flash stuff.
just slow your roll a minute i'm coming over right now and we'll talk about this
i'm not gonna say no to killing him but the moral of that whole damn story i just told you is we gotta be sure we're careful or we could end up hurting ourselves and the people around us more while he stays perfectly fine. neither of us want that.
That doesn't make it okay, Cisco. It's never going to be okay.
[He could tell him that Barry is coming over. He probably should. Warn him off, at least until later. But in his mind, this is more important, and he needs to see Cisco right now. The feelings are conflicting, his stomach is clenching and it's selfish, but he just doesn't mention it.]
I guess you're right.
I just feel like everything I gave up was for nothing. You still almost died.
it wasn't for nothing. and it's not lost forever, remember?
i'm sorry i didn't tell you about the time remnant earlier the whole incident was so scary and confusing, it was easier for me to just try to forget any of it ever happened. i didn't mean to lie
And I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at Eobard. I'm mad that it happened. I know you didn't mean to lie. And I know you're going to make it so I can live again.
I'm gonna be okay. I want to see you.
[A moment later, and he follows up with another text.]
Barry is coming to the apartment. But I still really want to see you.
i was pretty mad when it happened, too. we managed to get the jump on him before he could do much of anything because i vibed that he was around. bet you can guess how fun that was.
[ Cisco finishes pulling on clothes and texts as he's on his way through the door. ]
i'm coming over. if i get there before barry i'm gonna hug you a lot. (if i get there after him i'm still gonna hug you a lot)
At least you kept him from doing serious damage, and in the end, you were okay. That's something.
[And he might be thinking it, but he isn't going to say it - that Cisco's ability was useful and good and helped a lot. Maybe he'll put that thought into words later, but he can't find the right ones right now, words that will let him express that without hurting Cisco.]
Thank you. I really, really need the hugs.
He doesn't remember, though. None of it. So we're going to have to tell him about us again.
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Almost dying wasn't on your mind?
Oh my god.
Of course you were angry at him. He's an asshole! He can't just keep doing this. And no, I'm not going to blame you and Barry, this is on HIM. It always will be on him.
I'm going to kill him.
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just slow your roll a minute i'm coming over right now and we'll talk about this
i'm not gonna say no to killing him but the moral of that whole damn story i just told you is we gotta be sure we're careful or we could end up hurting ourselves and the people around us more while he stays perfectly fine. neither of us want that.
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[He could tell him that Barry is coming over. He probably should. Warn him off, at least until later. But in his mind, this is more important, and he needs to see Cisco right now. The feelings are conflicting, his stomach is clenching and it's selfish, but he just doesn't mention it.]
I guess you're right.
I just feel like everything I gave up was for nothing. You still almost died.
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i'm sorry i didn't tell you about the time remnant earlier
the whole incident was so scary and confusing, it was easier for me to just try to forget any of it ever happened.
i didn't mean to lie
are you gonna be okay?
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And I'm not mad at you. I'm mad at Eobard. I'm mad that it happened.
I know you didn't mean to lie. And I know you're going to make it so I can live again.
I'm gonna be okay. I want to see you.
[A moment later, and he follows up with another text.]
Barry is coming to the apartment. But I still really want to see you.
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we managed to get the jump on him before he could do much of anything because i vibed that he was around. bet you can guess how fun that was.
[ Cisco finishes pulling on clothes and texts as he's on his way through the door. ]
i'm coming over.
if i get there before barry i'm gonna hug you a lot.
(if i get there after him i'm still gonna hug you a lot)
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[And he might be thinking it, but he isn't going to say it - that Cisco's ability was useful and good and helped a lot. Maybe he'll put that thought into words later, but he can't find the right ones right now, words that will let him express that without hurting Cisco.]
Thank you. I really, really need the hugs.
He doesn't remember, though. None of it. So we're going to have to tell him about us again.
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you're just in luck then cuz i have a near infinite supply
i guessed. i can do the honors if you want. i figure... he was cool with it once he'll be cool with it a second time.
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You know what? I'm lucky to have a boyfriend like you. As kind and intelligent and creative and gorgeous as you.
It's up to you. If you don't feel up to it, I can.
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we can play it by ear
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Thanks babe. Seriously. I feel a lot better. I'll see you in a few.