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I understand. Even with so many people around you, not talking to you only at you, or keeping their distance...it gets lonely. And sometimes, the only company you have is yourself.

[They keep finding things in common, don't they?]

sounds like you know exactly what i'm talking about.

[ It's sad, thinking someone as nice as her would have gone through something as lonely as that, but it's also kind of a relief not to have to explain any further. To just know that she gets it, and has clearly been in the same place herself. ]

you get used to it though.
people actually seeing you and caring. having friends. relying on people. takes a while, but you do.

[It's sad that both of them have gone through almost the exact same thing, but at least Rey knows there's someone else who understands. At least Cisco won't try to enter her mind and use that against her.]

I got used to it for a few people, now...it's like starting back at the beginning.

It was still surprising to know someone cares--not about what use you are to them, but that they care for you, nothing else. No ill motives or anything else.

yeah. that's tough.
but for what it's worth, the people here are... really good for the most part
i mean better on the whole than back on earth anyway.

i get that.
tho people with ill motives sometimes hide them
i mean i know you probably know that you're a smart gal
i'm just saying you gotta find a balance between letting yourself be open to people and keeping yourself safe
cause there are people out there who will try to use how happy you are to finally have a friend against you

and i realize saying this is like saying 'don't automatically trust new people if they seem nice' and i'm a new (nice?) person
but you don't need to trust me right away
i'm gonna prove to you that i'm worth trusting

Edited 2017-10-06 02:47 (UTC)

I don't know. I haven't met everyone here. I can't say who I can really trust yet--Poe, yes, and another. And you. I don't sense ill will from you, Cisco.

It's...difficult to explain. And I know, there's dangers and all that stuff. I've already had someone try to hurt my friends and tried to then against me. It's, it's hard to think there isn't some alternative behind a friendship, I want to believe in it. I really do, but, it's difficult when you've been hurt before, you know?

i do know.
it's brave to try and believe in friendship i think
even when it's hard
especially when it's hard

[ He hadn't really been planning on going into this, and he's not going to give much detail, but... it's not exactly a secret, either. Maybe he wouldn't bring it up if he weren't alone and a bit tired and waiting for Eddie to come back, but he taps out and send quickly before he can change his mind. ]

i used to trust people a lot more
it didn't go great
so i'm still working on finding that balance, myself

[ They're both lonely, tired and have too much in common for their own good. Rey should be turning to Poe, talking to him about her feelings but he isn't from the same time point as her. She didn't want to make him worry over Finn or telling him that Han died. So she's turning to Cisco... He's done enough for her already and...we're they really going to go this deep?]

The first time I trusted someone, thought they were my friends was when I was younger. I found a ship that could be salvaged, and started working on it. Thought if I could get it back in flying order, I'd have enough portions--food, to last for a few weeks. Two other scavengers found out what I was doing and we agreed to work together.

When it was time to turn it in, I flew it to Niima outpost, and once I stepped off, they took off with the ship. I had nothing left to show for my hard work or anything to trade for portions. .

Edited 2017-10-06 04:41 (UTC)

[ Cisco reads her story, heart breaking for this younger Rey, who was just trying to get by (who had evidently been fending for herself for a lot of her life), and who was so thoroughly punished for a moment of carelessness and trust. ]

that's terrible, that they did that to you.
you were all in a bad situation, you should've been able to work together and rely on each other and all benefit
people can be selfish, and stupid, and cruel.

They can be...and it makes you rethink about putting yourself first rather than everyone else..

But then, you don't want to be like them. You don't want to be cruel, you don't want to be selfish.

And I feel like i'm rambling now. Sorry.

you don't gotta apologize.
you're not saying anything i haven't thought before a dozen times

[ He figures 'preaching to the choir' might not translate well, either. ]

i think all you can do is... try your best
and don't give up on the possibility that some people really are good

[No, it wouldn't be the best thing to say to her right now. She wouldn't get the reference.]

Haven't given up, but it's still a barrier to over come.

Otherwise, I wouldn't be texting you. You're really too nice to be real..

I meant that as a compliment!

i took it as one, don't worry

[ There is a brief pause in his replies, as Eddie finally gets back, before Cisco shoots off a few last quick texts ]

i actually gotta go for now tho
it was good talking to you
get some rest okay
i'll see you bright and early friday morning

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