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franciscoramon) wrote2017-04-06 09:14 pm
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 LEAVE A MESSAGE! voice | video | text |
franciscoramon) wrote2017-04-06 09:14 pm
LEAVE A MESSAGE! voice | video | text |
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[At least she was more patient these days.
...it didn't mean she had the best grasp of her emotions, though - especially not after just coming out of a staff where she had been an awful mess in the first place.
Normally she either exploded or clammed up, like when she was dealing with her relic destroying so many people. Right now, it seemed she dealt with it by dumping her issues on the sweet kid she had only known for a few months.
There's anger there that she hasn't fully worked through yet, and guilt that bubbles like acid in her chest and makes her insult herself without even thinking about it. She, Lup Taaco, the next best fucking person in the universe called herself stupid.
Because she had been.]
I should have been more careful, Cisco. If I didn't die like that, Taako would never have been alone.
[In the end, that is her reason for the guilt. She wasn't there for her brother.]
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[ That is some relief, at least, and Cisco makes a mental note to ask Taako if there is anything he can do to help, as soon as possible. Probably it was almost entirely a spell, and nothing he can aid in, but who knows. Cisco's at least picked up now that occasionally some spells require... ingredients of some variety, so perhaps he can aid in that way.
For now though it's enough to know that something is being done, that there are options, and Lup knows about them and has some hope for a change.
As for the rest, Cisco treads very carefully, going silent for a few moments before he says: ]
Listen, I know how much it means to you to keep him safe and... it's gotta hurt a lot knowing there was some time when you weren't able to do that.
[ The words feel insufficient even as he's saying them, but Cisco forges on. It's so rare, to hear Lup talking about herself like this, and it's a topic he's spent more than a little time thinking about, himself. He'd been a bit closer to where she is right now, at first - thinking he was an idiot for not realizing Eobard was evil, feeling like getting killed was half his fault anyway for digging into things and then wandering down into that stupid basement alone. But he'd come out the other side of it, now, and for all that his feelings about his death are still complicated and awful, he at least mostly doesn't blame himself anymore. ]
But him being alone wasn't only on you, and- and the thing is nobody can be careful one hundred percent of the time. You just can't. That doesn't make it your fault some asshole dwarf decided to attack you. That's on him, thrall or no thrall, y'know?
[ Cisco thinks about what she said, about how she needs love to keep her on track in this form, and so he quickly tries to think of something that would make Lup happy. Movie might make her sad because of the popcorn (and also maybe be a bit distracting for other audience members). But that sparks an idea and he asks: ]
Hey you know we should totally record some sick specials effects for that movie project while you're all lichy. It makes your powers stronger, right? You feel up to blowing up some random shit in the abandoned city?
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[She has faith in her brother, and in everyone who wanted to help.
Then Lup quietly watches Cisco as he speaks, obviously trying to cheer her up - and it's sweet, and he's partly right. He couldn't know how it felt, though. He didn't live their life.
He didn't know how fucking much they depended on each other ever since they were little. Just them against the world, her with fire and courage and him with wits and calm. She had always been the protector, probably before she could even walk.
He couldn't know how subtly different Taako was now, and how that changed their dynamic.
...but she listens, and she takes it in, because Cisco is her friend and he means well. Maybe he's a little right at some parts, too, but Lup doesn't have the energy to be logical right now.
So it's a good thing that he breaks the tension by talking about movie effects.]
Oh shit, definitely! I'm crazy powerful now, I could blow up part of the Hunger, can you imagine the shit I could get into now? We need to get that on camera.
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Well, if that dabbling ever gets into some territory where you need help with machines, you got my number.
[ He isn't really sure whether any of that actually got through, about not blaming herself, but he takes the lack of response as a strong hint that he shouldn't push it any further; at least, not right now. Besides, Cisco knows there is a very limited amount of good that can ever be done in lecturing and telling someone how to feel. If Lup is blaming herself, thinking badly of herself, he has a better chance of undoing some part of that by making her happy, reminding her of the good stuff.
And that means providing her with company, and friendship, and distractions, sooner rather than later. ]
You got plans this afternoon? We could go out and get some sweet footage, the weather's good today.
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[Right up there with Taako, Lucretia, Magnus and the most decent fast food place they could find.
Focusing fully now on this explosive adventure instead, she starts making plans for what spell slots to burn. This was all going to me pretty amazing, in her humble opinion.]
Let's get going!