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more than ten shots is officially too many.

[ If it were someone else he'd ask the obvious question, but he's got a feeling that 'are you okay' is gonna seem like a complicated one to Taako for a few reasons, so he substitutes: ]

you need anything?

nah im good for at least 5 more

i need a second house where i can go when shit is weird at the apartment

[That's not something Cisco can help with, unfortunately.]

please don't give yourself alcohol poisoning, taako.

[ Cisco knows that saying that may just make Taako even more determined to prove him wrong, but... he doesn't know what else TO say. ]

shit, man, i didn't even think about that.
that's gotta be one tense ambiance over there.

its cool were cool

it suuuuucks. i know i could crash at eddies or whatever but then he'd do that thing he does where hes like nice and concerned and gentle and shit and i cant do that right now

what's that?
i think... yep, just got a vision!
a real certified metahuman vision, of future taako tomorrow morning, muttering to himself about "I only wish that past Taako had had a glass or two of water along with his shots. And maybe like a slice of bread or something."

[ He's pretty sure Taako is not in the mood to be amused, but it's Cisco's best coping technique. He might not get why having Eddie fuss over him and be gentle to him would be a bad option, but he is not going to pry open that particular can of worms tonight. ]

dude, you know i'd offer to let you crash at my place if my place were not also, in fact, eddie's place.
if it's really that bad maybe you can crash with bryn or clark or something?

or we can devise a cunning and overcomplicated plan to trap lucretia and lup in a room together and we don't let them out until they've talked it out and hugged.

Edited 2017-07-17 10:09 (UTC)

im turning this napkin into a lsice of bread if i diethats on you

[The vision thing was kind of funny though.]

i know that might seem liek the worlds greatest idea but lup and anger are not good combos, at all, ever.

hey how fuckingn weird is it living with a dude yuve got a crush on?

[Great subject change. Nailed it.]

please don't give yourself non-alcohol poisoning either taako

so, if that's true you must know some ways to help her deal with it, right?
what've you done before when she got really mad?

[ God... why this. Cisco had been just fine (concerned, but fine) talking about Taako's problems, but now he pauses to pinch the bridge of his nose between texts. ]

okay listen
like i know you're hammered and might not even remember this later but listen
for the like official record.
you asked if i had a thing for anybody here, and i said no but if i HAD TO pick someone, he was the closest to qualifying
that's like telling somebody they have to pick between drinking a whole jar of hot sauce, eating an entire jar of pickles, or eating a jar full of bugs.
like just because you choose the pickles over the other two doesn't mean you're a fucking pickle fiend.

Edited 2017-07-17 10:21 (UTC)

shit

[and then another text, a few seconds later:]

sorry

[ OH NO THIS IS NOT WHAT HE WANTED AT ALL. ]

it's okay, dude, don't sweat it
i mean it's true but i'm giving you a hard time.
you can still make the pickle joke if you want, that shit is wide open

[He's too drunk and emotional for this. Also things have been kinda weird with Eddie but he doesn't... know how to talk about that.]

the pickle joke is too easy to make

[ Cisco has officially gone from worried to Worried, now. ]

you're right. low-hanging fruit tbh.

[ He doesn't know how to make this better so his solution is to just keep saying words. ]

the less ranty answer is it's been good living there
the communal housing was the fucking worst
i had a stupid nightmare and screamed a lot and it was a disaster
he found out i was sleeping in my lab and wouldn't let it go until i agreed to take the attic and stop living like a hobo

[ Cisco doesn't actually know how much of that Taako already knows, whether Eddie had relayed any of that info or not. It's kind of an embarrassing story, and not one he would tell almost anyone, but... it's Taako. Who's drunk and being too quiet and whose own housing situation is kind of not ideal at the moment. ]

he's a good guy like that

[Which comes back to Taako not being sure about the whole relationship thing because he doesn't feel like he's a good enough person.]

communal housing did suck, for sure. i couldnt wait to get outta there but i didnt wanna live alone either, you know?

[He's never been a fan of that.]

yep.

[ He's not at all surprised, that Taako hadn't wanted to live on his own. He seems like a guy who really wouldn't do well living alone. ]

i get that.
my plan had been to save up enough to get a place on my own because i figured it was alone or room with some weird strangers
but there was a third option after all

if id known i wouldve

well no i wouldnt have invited you to live iwth us but not cause of you its just like ellie doesnt do great with strangers

it's cool.
you didn't know cuz that's how i wanted it.
and look i'm glad i am where i am now, it worked out great, but i was handling it, y'know?

obviously ellie's the priority
she's just a kid, and it's her place, and like i just said living with strangers is the w o r s t
it's good she's got you looking out for her.

yeah i get it

kids are so much easier than adults, even teenagers. shit never seems as fucking complicated with them

[This conversation is all over the place, but that's probably the tequila's fault]

[ There are people who, Cisco thinks, he wouldn't really believe them if they said "I get it" to that. But with Taako, he doesn't doubt it. ]

gonna have to trust you on that one
can't say i've known a whole lot of kids.
not since i was one, and obvs that's different.

what kind of shit, though?

i dunno its like

[It hits him, suddenly, how much he misses Angus fucking McDonald.]

even if you fuck up they still care about you. adults have got their own agendas and shit, kids just want someone to be nice to them

[ Oh. ]

man, i so wish i could say you were wrong
but that sounds about right.

[ Cisco's own recently increased pessimism aside, he doesn't want to push Taako even deeper into a low mood than he already might be. ]

at least not all the agendas are bad
there really are people out there who just want to do good, and help others and make the world better even for all the shitheads that don't deserve it.

[He remembers telling Ellie that it was better to never trust anyone, to never rely on anyone, and that was... before he remembered Lup and the IPRE, but some of that paranoia still lingers. He spent ten years believing he was alone, the only person he'd trusted in that time had ruined his life.]

i mean, i know that

most of the people here are way too nice and good and shit, i dont fucking get it

[ Cisco's actually thought something along the same lines, and from what he's heard, Taako's world is much harsher than his own. So whatever adjustment Cisco had had to make, it must have been double for Taako. ]

yeah people are super friendly here.
made me all kinds of paranoid when i first showed up.

[ Taako had seen some of that paranoia - Cisco had asked him point-blank why he was being so nice, why Taako was befriending him in the first place. ]

i know it's not the same but there's a lot of adults here who'll still care about you even if you fuck stuff up
i mean everybody fucks up now and then

fuck, right? i for sure thought clark was secretly evil or something, he was just too good

[Clark is Too Pure and it's endlessly baffling.]

for ten years i was a completely fucking different person

i dont.

its weird

[For all that seems like a tangent, it's related to things like this, how hard it is to trust people and to believe that they won't abandon him if he makes a mistake. He's never really talked about this, the way losing his memories of Lup changed him, and how hard it is to reconcile what feels like two versions of himself.]

i thought YOU were secretly evil. just for a couple minutes. don't feel bad tho i think that about everybody.

[ Another one of those things he wouldn't admit if they weren't having drunk texting soul baring sharing time. ]

while you didn't remember?
yea, that's gotta be a hell of a trip.
makes sense, though. you thought you had a whole different life, right?

im just real fucking charming, thats not the same as like, nice

[That possibly only makes sense to him, but he feels like there's a difference between being friendly and charming because he's an outgoing person, to being the sort of genuinely kind person that Clark and Eddie are.]

i thought i'd been alone. only person id ever fucking let close was sazed and look where that ended up.
and now i get it, i remember my family and i know i wasnt alone but ive got like, two sets of memories. two versions of everything that happened to me

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